I have learned that now is all I have. I still have a chance to do something. Dwelling on the past is not going to take me where I want to be. I used to hate myself for quitting my internship on Wall Street. I had two jobs. I was going to college. I was overwhelmed, and I decided that quitting the internship was the right thing to do, even after I was promised a job in three months. I started to regret it after I graduated from college. I had a degree in computer software with no job. I graduated from college in 2004, but I did not get a real job until 2008, when I opened my clothing store on Ebay. I was not making five thousand dollars a month, but I made enough to pay the bills. Opening my Ebay store made me realize that I could still do something. I did do something, and I did it all by myself, with my own money. My life took an unexpected turn. A turn that forced me to do something I never thought that I could do alone.
I have absolutely no regrets. I know there are things that I could've done differently, but I also know that there is no way I can go back to fix them. What I can do now is teach my children and other people around me how to avoid those mistakes and move forward. Shoulda-Coulda-Woulda does not stop time, nor does it bring it back. Leave the past behind and focus on the future. There is no point killing yourself over something that you cannot change.